you people may be wondering y i asked. well i can give u a very breif condensed version:

there is a girl i know who i used to be friends in during like 7th, 8th, 9th, and 10th. not greta but better than aquintances. anyways in the last like year her mother was striken with cancer adn she relaly couldnt come to school b/c she had to stay home and help out alot. but over that time i fell in love with one of her good friends (they hang out a lot). anyways after that i tryed to rekindle a friendship with this girl who never coems to school. anyways she after a while would have weird things on her away message like "bashin my head into a wall" and i said something through aim and asked her if she was ok. and the thing is i wouldnt ever ask anybody or even pretend to care but i asked since i genuinely did and since i feel bad that what is going on in her life.

anyways she took it one way and thought i called her suicadal or something (and i have had a weird experience within in my own family with suicide an i grew up with it being a common thing in my family) anways she said how she really doesnt understand y i even bother talkin to her and just b/c i like this girl do i even talk to her. anyways that is true that i like this girl but the fact that she said it how she did. like how i relaly dont care and the thing is i have been friends with this person for longer than i even liked this girl like a few years compared to 6 months. anbyways i think the fact that she is such good friends with this girl that i care about she may have ruined something inadvertantly (maybe by just saying something and could have some influence.) well i just want to mess witrh her and show her some real suciadal away messages. nothing meaning by them but i just want to do something to show how much i was hurt. so if anybody knows where i can get some deep adn twisted suical messages. (dont take it werid or anything, im completly sane and normal and suicde is against my religion) it would be helpful.

this is the weirdist thread ever i know.