ahh it is amazing how muc one's fortunes can change in the matter of a few days.

so last you heard i was ensnared with this girl who was way too attached, wasn't giving me (or even trying) what I need to satisfy me and we were in this serious relationship while i'm doing a semester abroad, which is not what i wanted.

so i sat her down and talked. i told her that this wasn't what i was looking for. I came to Italy to have a good time and i didn't want to have to worry about anyone but myself for a few months. Yeah it's selfish, but i fucking deserve that every now and again. i asked her if she'd be ok taking a step back, maybe just fooling around. I know terra and maybe some others don't like the idea of an open relationship, but for god's fucking sake i'm in a foreign country for 6 months, only have 3 left, and i'm travelling often. Is it really worthwhile to get into a serious commitment with someone i'll never see again in 3 month's time? I don't think so.

She wouldn't accept an open relationship. She kept saying she wanted us to just keep going forward without worrying about the future. I told her it wasn't about the future, it was about now. She asked me if i wanted to see other girls and that this was why i was saying this. I lied and told her no (she was already in tears at this point). Anyhow, it ended with us cutting things off for the meanwhile.

Two days later one of my ex's comes into town for a night. 2 months of sexual frustration out the window.

I might have mentioned this somewhere earlier in this thread, but there was a girl I met, an American, who really caught my eye and who i thought i had chemistry with. but she'd just gotten dumped by her long-distance boyfriend and was all cracked up about it. i didn't want to deal with that.

well last night we're all out drinking a beer or four and she didn't have dinner so she gets a little drunk and says she wants to go home. we leave in a group. we split up to walk home. i live on the north east part of town and she lives even farther north, so after awhile it was just us. we get to the place where we should split up. I ask her if she'll be allright getting home, she is tipsy and lives in the not greatest part of town. She says she'll be fine. I ask her if she wants me to walk her home. She says 'do you want to?'

Yup. We go back, make PB&J sandwiches and have some racous oral sex for several hours. But were both clear that we're both "fuckbuddies" (her words, not mine) and not in a serious relationship. A-OK with me!

I feel like a little kid who just got his christmas present months in advance