Originally Posted by
saman
my bitch...is not really a bitch. it's just general moping. i found out today that a good friend of mine's mother passed away on friday after a very short and sudden onset of lung cancer. it makes me sad, because said friend and i have gotten fairly close in the last year, and i wish there was something i could do for her. and it makes me think of my relationship with my own mom, and the thought of not having her around kinda gives me a panic attack. also, this is selfish and pathetic, but even though i know my friend is going through a really bad time, i feel sad for myself because i miss spending time with her.
also, my best friend just got married a week and a half ago and probably just got back from her honeymoon, and has moved to a new town with her husband, so she's probably going insane with stuff to do too, so i don't want to call her either, and i really miss talking to her.
*sigh* i'll just go mope around and feel lonely some more now