I know how you feel Terra. About three years back I met a girl, and I thought that I had finally found something meaningful in my life, she was something that I held above all. To be in her presence was a greater gift than I could have asked for or imagined. The relationship was also the most lasting, where before I would be with someoen for a week and get bored then move on, with her I was going on a year and a half. Suddenly somewhere during the middle of the second to be year, we began to get a bit rocky things didnt feel the same and she felt the need to sever the relationship. Left now alone and with a beleif that my life had no more meaning I was in a depressive state for far too long, and though I never allowed myself to play with the thought of suicide, it was always in the back of my mind. After a month or two I just decided to let myself become bitter and cynical about the thought of love in general and keep the beleif that one should never leave themselves open for injury again.

So I have atleast an Inkling to how you feel, and I hope the best for you. And suggest you try to take your mind off it as best as possible. Dwelling on the problem can only make you feel worse.

Edited for spelling.