Originally Posted by
Xrlderek
9th in a poker tourney for 25k$ when first place was 500k$.. Chipstack was worth 200k$ when I came into the final table. I want to puke. To make it worse they made a deal when it got down to 7 players where the player worst off got 150k$. So damn close. Decided to get high rather than drunk because drunk always makes me drunkpost or really depressed, think that was a great decision. Biggest adrenaline rush in forever though..
Other than that I am using adderal/ritalin/vyvanse more and more frequently and am scared it will be hard to stop. So much stress around family and everything else lately and this is the only thing making my anxiety go away and actually lets me do productive stuff, even simple stuff like going to the store and making food. I really need to start exercising every day.. I used to just use 1-2 times a week, now I'm using nearly every day.