Death BOO Z
Wed, 07-27-2005, 09:55 AM
As I mentioned a few times already, mainly in the Irc channel but also in the forum itself, I live in the country of Israel, and after finishing high school and turning 18 this month, I'm required by law to go through a 3 year military service.
Yes, I'm not mistaken, three years. Next time I'll be able to touch a computer will be in 2008.
That, of course, in an overstatement, I'll get to return home and such, probably a day or two every few weeks, and I'll also get longer vacations every few months. But, in some ways, the following week will be the final week as a teen, and after that, I'll be somewhat of an adult&
And obviously, adults don't have time for fun; time's too precious for that, gotta work, study and be useful to society. Again, I'm pretty much exaggerating, but that's just how I see it&
Anyway, army. Starting from July 31, I'll be a soldier. I'm not sure which unit am I supposed to go to yet, but I'm guessing on the armored vehicles one, as it seems that most people who will be recruited at the same day have voiced their preference to serve in that unit.
Logically speaking, I shouldn't be this worried, my brother has finished his service a few months ago, so I have someone that has gone through the same things as I will, and thinking of it, I'm in a much better state than he was. However, despite saying that, I'm still worried sick.
I'm not worried much by the physical parts of boot camp or even taking part in combat situations- my brother didn't get involved in a shot exchange the entire time he was serving, and I probably won't be either. The things that really worrying me are much simpler, I'm wondering how would I fit in with the other recruits (I'll be serving with people who come from every part of the country, you can compare it to a new-York-ien with someone from the bible belt of USA), and whether I'll make something close to friends there. The same kind of trivial thoughts I had before entering high school or before changing apartments, only this time, they're amplified ten folds.
Before, I had hobbies and earlier friend to fall on in case something went wrong, I could brush on some worries just by focusing on something else, now, I don't think that will work. Spending at least five days each week (in the very best case that I'll be allowed to go home once a week at Thursday, which probably won't be for at least the first few months) with people I hardly know (and judging by past experiences, we won't get along at all) really stresses me out.
And no matter how terribly stupid and childish it sounds, I'm also annoyed that my manga/anime time will be taken away, it seems like a really stupid thing to be worried about, but after 3 years of wasting a few hours each day on the subject, it's a bit drastic to cut it all down.
So, why am I posting this? Probably just to say goodbye to the forum, I've joined it a bit more than two years ago just to speak of Naruto, and it turned out to be quite a place to talk about everything. This topic probably won't be actually my LAST post, since I've taken a few days notice to post it, and I'll probably come back once in a few months to bitch about Naruto's latest chapters and complain about a something that only went on for a chapter or two. But that doesn't really change a thing, no matter what happens in the future, I feel that this is going to be the most important event in my life, the one that nothing will be the same afterwards&
That's just about all I have to say, for now, maybe some twist of fate will occur and my drafting date will be pushed back, but I've pretty much given up hope on that&
Oh yeah, this is the point where I thank people for making the forum so great, but I don't have a good enough memory to go through all the users who deserve it, so I'll stick to general gotwoot users types.
First of all, I must thank all the people who made me feel smart, those that once I read whatever they had to say, I could go through the entire week thanking god I wasn't born dumb.
Contrary to them, there are also people that made sure my head was in the normal proportions, it's always nice to have someone you can look up to&
Next in line, all the people who disagreed and argued with me, which were probably the most enjoyable discussions in the forum, whether I 'won' or 'lost' the argument, it was still a blast.
That's really all I can think of right now, so that's about it.
I'll see you guys around, perhaps even as soon as August 5th, but don't count on it. I'm trying to mentally prepare for a long stay, though I'm sure that when I'll be back, I'll visit this thread a laugh at myself.
actually, I'm already laughing at myself, but since i wrote this all, I feel bad not to post it, so that's about it.
Yes, I'm not mistaken, three years. Next time I'll be able to touch a computer will be in 2008.
That, of course, in an overstatement, I'll get to return home and such, probably a day or two every few weeks, and I'll also get longer vacations every few months. But, in some ways, the following week will be the final week as a teen, and after that, I'll be somewhat of an adult&
And obviously, adults don't have time for fun; time's too precious for that, gotta work, study and be useful to society. Again, I'm pretty much exaggerating, but that's just how I see it&
Anyway, army. Starting from July 31, I'll be a soldier. I'm not sure which unit am I supposed to go to yet, but I'm guessing on the armored vehicles one, as it seems that most people who will be recruited at the same day have voiced their preference to serve in that unit.
Logically speaking, I shouldn't be this worried, my brother has finished his service a few months ago, so I have someone that has gone through the same things as I will, and thinking of it, I'm in a much better state than he was. However, despite saying that, I'm still worried sick.
I'm not worried much by the physical parts of boot camp or even taking part in combat situations- my brother didn't get involved in a shot exchange the entire time he was serving, and I probably won't be either. The things that really worrying me are much simpler, I'm wondering how would I fit in with the other recruits (I'll be serving with people who come from every part of the country, you can compare it to a new-York-ien with someone from the bible belt of USA), and whether I'll make something close to friends there. The same kind of trivial thoughts I had before entering high school or before changing apartments, only this time, they're amplified ten folds.
Before, I had hobbies and earlier friend to fall on in case something went wrong, I could brush on some worries just by focusing on something else, now, I don't think that will work. Spending at least five days each week (in the very best case that I'll be allowed to go home once a week at Thursday, which probably won't be for at least the first few months) with people I hardly know (and judging by past experiences, we won't get along at all) really stresses me out.
And no matter how terribly stupid and childish it sounds, I'm also annoyed that my manga/anime time will be taken away, it seems like a really stupid thing to be worried about, but after 3 years of wasting a few hours each day on the subject, it's a bit drastic to cut it all down.
So, why am I posting this? Probably just to say goodbye to the forum, I've joined it a bit more than two years ago just to speak of Naruto, and it turned out to be quite a place to talk about everything. This topic probably won't be actually my LAST post, since I've taken a few days notice to post it, and I'll probably come back once in a few months to bitch about Naruto's latest chapters and complain about a something that only went on for a chapter or two. But that doesn't really change a thing, no matter what happens in the future, I feel that this is going to be the most important event in my life, the one that nothing will be the same afterwards&
That's just about all I have to say, for now, maybe some twist of fate will occur and my drafting date will be pushed back, but I've pretty much given up hope on that&
Oh yeah, this is the point where I thank people for making the forum so great, but I don't have a good enough memory to go through all the users who deserve it, so I'll stick to general gotwoot users types.
First of all, I must thank all the people who made me feel smart, those that once I read whatever they had to say, I could go through the entire week thanking god I wasn't born dumb.
Contrary to them, there are also people that made sure my head was in the normal proportions, it's always nice to have someone you can look up to&
Next in line, all the people who disagreed and argued with me, which were probably the most enjoyable discussions in the forum, whether I 'won' or 'lost' the argument, it was still a blast.
That's really all I can think of right now, so that's about it.
I'll see you guys around, perhaps even as soon as August 5th, but don't count on it. I'm trying to mentally prepare for a long stay, though I'm sure that when I'll be back, I'll visit this thread a laugh at myself.
actually, I'm already laughing at myself, but since i wrote this all, I feel bad not to post it, so that's about it.